Well, I’m on. As I type this, with every strike of the key, a weird buzzing in my left ear confirms that. Yesterday was staples out and activation day and it was…OK. I was expecting worse. I don’t feel devastated. I am curious. Maybe even hopeful??? And neurologically exhausted but that is par for the course.
People ask what the sound is like. It is very very hard to explain but go to about the 6 minute mark of this video where Peter Frampton is singing Do You Feel Like I Do and starts using his talk box. That is the closest thing I can think of to explain it. But for me right now, the words are nowhere near a recognisable as in his solo. This takes weeks.
So what does this proliferation of yellow jewellery have to do with ANY of this? I have to confess that I have been very afraid. Afraid this might not work; afraid that I don’t have the energy in me to take on the learning required; afraid that I was not up to another episode of digging deep. Afraid that none of the electrodes that were stuck in my cochlear would take. Afraid that I would be left worse off than before. And obviously, the way to go…the way any NORMAL person would deal with this…was to explore that fear in jewellery form. And it is most emphatically not that I associate yellow with cowardice. I LOVE yellow. Yellow is sunshine and confidence and fields of mustard flowers in Nepal and fields of canola in Australia and Vincent Van Gogh and amber and wonderful things! It is the second favourite colour after red of just about every Nepali women I have ever asked!! But…I rarely create with yellow and I even more rarely wear it. I was…afraid of yellow. So working with something I was afraid of, immersing myself in it to the extent that it was the only colour I could use, is kind of a symbol of facing my fear. I mixed many many yellows and just spent hours surrounded by yellow. Really looking at yellow. Feeling more confident abut yellow. Letting yellow seep deep into me. The way I need to do with this buzzing.
* Mellow Yellow, Do You Feel….anyone would think I was a child of the 60s!
Good luck with the ear thing hope it works for you do you think we will ever get back to our beloved Nepal to see all those gorgeous red & yellow saris the ladies wear so elegantly don’t think I will be celebrating the festivals over there this year but will book a seat on a plane as soon as it is safe to do so
Oh Pam, the days of those saris seem so long ago and so far away! What year this has been. I hope things are improving for you!!Mwah.
like you wendy I have always steered away from wearing yellow but I love working with it and use it a lot in my glass work and gourd birds. I don’t know why I can’t see myself in yellow……
Once the buzzing in yoyr head has subsided you will get a new freedom I imagine.
Once you can fly again Nepal beckons and the freedom to Rejoice with your friends there will be amazing for you and them and the emotional journey will have been worth it.
You would ROCK yellow Janice! And thank you for your love and encouragement!!!! Mwah.
Beautiful work Wendy, subtle and mature and shining with confidence. Hope your journey towards improved hearing continues apace, and doesn’t exhaust you too much! x
Mwah, Thanks darling Deb…do you wear yellow??
Yellow is a beautiful colour in my humble opinion. I generally don’t see too much of it but when I do, I am always blown away by how striking it looks. Yellow reminds me of elegance nd classic styles and of sunny, happy days. xx
Darling you I have just found this glorious comment! Mwah!!
This isn’t just yellow, Wen, it’s all kinds of gold, and sand, and amber and….I could go on. I personally am a fan. Big time. It’s the tonalities, stupid! (Didn’t Paul Keating say something similar, only relating to the economy???) And no, you are not stupid – brilliant in many ways, in fact. Kind of gold, really……
You are, of course, right!! And you are the person who rocks these colours so fabulously Libby! Mwah for reading!!! Love you.