In two days I leave Broken Hill for 7 weeks. In 6 days, my daughter gets married. In 8 days I leave for a month or so doing my thing in Nepal. Last week I submitted ten pieces to Montsalvat in Eltham for their Gallery shop. (Thank you darling Caterina for getting this happening) And just over a month after my return from Nepal we are moving. Again. I am sure that tied up in that imminent move is my desire to enter the most artistically ambitious thing I have ever attempted into our Outback Art Prize. It has been gestating since we moved to this isolated and amazing place and I…am compelled… to make it now. It is a good-bye love poem in polymer. It is a desire and not a should because I feel excited, physically alive, almost tingly. It is flowing. In between the other stuff that I choose to do.
(One may have wondered why the afore-mentioned love poem needed to include many hand made, hand textured, hand painted bones and hundreds of paper thin polymer clay gum leaves. One could ask if I really needed to do this right now* but one hasn’t asked this because one has been married to me for two weeks shy of 31 years and knows it wouldn’t help. Instead, without any fanfare or fuss, one sweeps, cooks, and picks up the neglected pieces. One has encouraged and helped and been generally amazing. Sometimes you can get really lucky. I know I did.)
I know, at other times, all this going on would be freaking me out. I am a little freaked but to my surprise, am feeling more energised than freaked. I realise that so often, the person saying Do it better; Do it faster; Be more on top of things is me. Other people can handle it slower, less organised, well down vs perfect! I can choose to do some things in a good enough way so I can really dedicate the time I want to other things. There is still that tiny part saying Don’t worry. Tomorrow you will wake up and be REALLY panicked and then you’ll be sorry but for now I’m running with I’m going OK.
Here are some I hope tantalising glimpses of what is to come. Even if I don’t get accepted, it has been fun. I am learning about creativity, trust, embracing life by the metaphorical balls and going with the flow.
*I do need to do it right now because it is a tad time consuming and the deadline is ten days after my return.